A week has passed...

A busy week though. Been indulging myself with work, work and more work. Until I don't even feel like going home after work's done! Can be quite tiring travelling to and fro. Hahaha, wish I could rather choose to sleep in the office though!

Been waiting and waiting for an opportunity to get my guys to go for ktv session!!! Wanna sing my heart out!!! Hahaha... bloody hell, they better not disappoint me this Friday!!! Seems like I finally accepted singing Chinese songs as part of my reportoire!!! Hehehe... but there's always room for improvement!!! And i seem to have lost touch with my pool skills as well. Thank goodness for SP & Teddy Bear for playing with me last Thurs!!! And snooker at that!!! Hehehe.

Oh well, nothing much to say le. Just that there are plenty more busy weeks to come all the way till August due to big projects coming in. I can foresee weekends being spent working full day!!! Hehehe... Time flies when you work like a bee and buzzing around every day!!!

I have plenty of note-worthy quotes to be posted up soon... so keep a lookout.

Va Va Vroom... ... ...

I HAVE ARRIVED!!!

I AM ENLIGHTENED!!!

I HAVE DONE WHAT I SET OUT TO DO!!!

& I AM PROUD OF MYSELF!!!

No more worries, no more 'planning' for me. Me, myself, and I!!! YahOO!!!

Jeffrey, haha, I never let myself get bothered for too long, you should know better by now since you have known me from poly days!!! I always get over my failures and disappointments, even when people around me doubt so!!! Too bad they always only assume I am a guy who's hardly serious and always fooling around.

Time will tell, Jeff, when detractors realise that I can become who I really wanna be, even when events/circumstances/situations/odds are against me. Yeah!!! Die liao, you and I same age... haha, kinda makes me wanna sing "Where Is The Love"... ... ... HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Hehehe.

Live On, Live Strong. Life is a never-ending journey. Only time will tell.

Have we doubted someone at one time or another?

Have we all at one time or another, lost faith and trust in another person?

Have we wondered if the person was telling the truth, hiding the truth, or telling a lie so that it won't hurt you?

Have you wondered, that in spite of all the things you do to try and make certain things work, you might still end up empty-handed?

Have you ever wondered, that no matter how hard you try to prove yourself, in terms of character and mentality, you might still not be able to convince detractors nor persuade those around you to give you a second chance?

Have you wondered how come you landed yourself in this state in the first place?

Have you wondered why the things you do could be misinterpreted by others as being childish, irrelevant and rash? Even when you only thought of doing it to try and make things right.

Have you wondered what else you can do, to make another person's life better, to try and hope that he/she can see the change in you and hope for a second chance to be given to you?

Have you wondered, what if the other person has really given up hope on you, given up on you, given up contemplating giving you another chance to make things work?

Have you wondered, what if the past of the other person caught up with him/her, and you become a forgotten man?

I have. And thats why I am here now, sitting alone in front of the computer writing about these thoughts that had occurred to me recently.

I think anyone who has stumbled onto my site the past few days may really wonder why the hell I have been writing so many entries almost daily since start of April. I also don't know why, so don't even think about asking me. Haha.

Perhaps... the only logical answer I can derive is that I have been on leave almost during the entire first week of April. For some reason or another. Private and personal reasons which I cant divulge. Anyway, thats besides the point for the basis of this entry today.

Today, I am actually trying very hard to focus my thoughts on a particular person who has, in one way or another (be it positive or negative), made a particularly strong impact in my life, or for better emphasis, ON my life. And of cos, the person is a gal, someone who was part of my life for 4 months or so from last November right till early March this year. Unfortunately... things didn't quite work out for us and so, we split and went our seperate ways. Its been almost a month now... since the relationship ended. I don't really know how she has been these days, but I am sure she knows how to live her life the way she wants it to be and be happy. So, in a way, I guess I should be happy for her.

Truth be told, despite our differences, amidst our arguments over certain topics... I truly enjoyed my time with her. Cos she was always able to surprise me with her quick-wit and train of thought! At the same time, she did entertain me with her own brand of humour which really did catch me unaware on more than one occasion. Haha. While we were together, she was also the one with the sense and sensibility to rationale things that happened around us and provide very useful suggestions. Indeed, i was very proud that she was my gf. I never minded her being smarter than me, nor minded the fact she was more rational. There are always certain elements that our gfs are better at than the bfs. No one is equal after all, right? 

After spelling out the intro to how this special person was like, allow me to introduce her. She will be known as J from henceforth. 

February: The VERY Beginning
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I still remember that day. It was one week before my cousin's wedding, and his younger brother had taken the opportunity to ask J, me and SDF out to discuss wedding plans (I was the emcee, along with SDF). J was working at OHS back then, as 'wedding planner'. It was the first time i met her... and vice versa. She was dressed in dark working attire, business attire... and... i was strangely attracted to her the longer i kept glancing at her. J was one of those type of women whereby you might not notice her radiance initially. But the longer you got to see her and the more you got to know her... you were hooked and you knew you were already attracted to her. Hahaha. At least, that was my case.

I managed to get her mobile number... and started calling her. But at that point of time, I found out she was attached and thus, eventually, all came to nought and I didnt contact her again. But strangely though, even though I deleted her number from my phone in April... I was still able to recollect it from my memory when I wanted to contact her again in October!
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End of September : Second Meeting
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My cousins and I arranged to meet at Rouge, to chill out and have a few drinks. And SDF said he had asked 2 of his lady frens along. So my cousins, myself and lionel waited outside waiting for the ladies' imminent arrival. And when the cab door swung open... out stepped J and her fren. I guess i was very shell-shocked indeed when I saw her again. But apparently, I wasn't the first person she laid her eyes on! Ahem, well, who can blame her when all my cousins are better looking than me??!!

We all had a good time that night (not just me and her but everyone). And so that... second meeting sparked me to msg her how she was the next day. I still remember I was at a petrol station at that particular time, and it was also when I plucked up the courage to sms her again, regardless whether she was still attached or not. AND SHE REPLIED!!! Hehehe... ... ...
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October : "Courtship" Period
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We exchanged calls and sms during this entire month. Trying to find out more about each other, likes, dislikes, hobbies, character, frens... family. Although it was not in-depth understanding, but we pretty much had a general idea of how each other was like... and i suppose it wasnt bad, considering that it did make me like her, though i didnt really show it. In fact, i remember this time during a phone conversation where i said something harsh to her. About why she wasn't doing anything with regards to her own feelings, towards herself and towards me. Come to think of it, it was rather bad of me to say that to her without taking her feelings into consideration (to think that i acknowledge myself as a sensitive guy!! tsk tsk!!).

Towards the end of October, i recalled that J went to Bkk with her family. And during those 4 days of her absence, i actually missed her presence. Haha. Oh goodness me. Here i am revealing my feelings to the people who will venture to this entry of mine again.
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November : The REAL Beginning, The Journey
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During the first week last October, there were 2 public holidays clamped in between. It fell on Tues and Thurs, i can still vividly recall. On tues night, i met up with 2 of my cousins for movie with their gfs and i turned up alone. But prior to meeting them, in the evening while we were deciding on the number of tickets to buy, i called J up to see if she might have returned to s'pore. I called twice... but no answer. She wasn't back yet. Which explains my lone presence at the movie.

That night, i think me and J had a chat on the phone and we had an argument over something. However, the next day, my cousin asked me out to acid bar to chill out. I immediately asked J along and we arranged to meet at icb first. I was late that night... and there she was, sitting alone on a high chair at a round table, waiting for none other than ME! That night... she was dressed in an olive green top... slightly off-shoulder... with a denim skirt (i think)... with beads hanging around her neck! I flashed a smile the moment she stepped off the chair and i held my breath, for before me, she simply looked astonishing and wonderful that night. I couldnt take my eyes off her from then on... and we proceeded to acid bar to link up. I sat next to her and pulled her chair close to me! Haha. Did I mention that J always smells great??!!

We managed to have a good time that night... and i sent her home. I was kinda tired that night, and i asked if i could rest before sending her up to her place. i rested my head on her lap... and her head on my shoulder... and we rested for fifteen to twenty mins before we both woke up. I walked her to her door... for the first time... and that... marked the beginning of the relationship betw me and J. Unforgettable.
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December : Birthday and Festive Period
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J bought me a handphone for my birthday present!!! I only bought her a pair of jeans for Xmas present. I really fell in love with her during this month. And I asked J if I was really someone whom she wanted to be with, even when they were other guys who possessed much better qualities than me who fancied her... ... ... J celebrated New Year with her ex-colleagues and frens cos I was stuck with work and couldnt leave.
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January : Problems & Troubles
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We argued over certain topics during this month. Issues I myself couldnt come to terms with and didnt carry out. This made J angry and hurt and disappointed. Nuff said.
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February : Feelings Subside...
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The title says it all... I felt it... and J knew it...
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March : The End
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Goodbye J. Thank you. For everything. Yes, everything. Much as it hurts me, I have to acknowledge your absence from my life. I may not have done everything while you were with me by my side, but I have finally settled my own personal problems. And sorted my own thoughts and feelings. Perhaps you were right in saying a person's mentality cant change, or thinking, for that matter. Perhaps I wasn't wrong in saying a person's thinking/mentality can change, due to circumstances. For the better, in terms of maturity and planning for the future. Yes, I have finally realised... It may have taken me this time to sort it out... But I am still not too late in starting over again since I have less committments now. Thanks J... You certainly did have your own way of showing care and concern towards me. And you were sweet in your own cute adorable way.

Thank you, for providing me with such memories. It was lovely. 
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Wow, woke up at 5.45am... struggled to MRT station by 6.15am and the train departed bringing me along. Reached Jurong East MRT at 6.22am... hopped onto the North bound train. 32 minutes later i was at Woodlands MRT. Walked to interchange and flagged for bus 858/969 to bring me to bus stop opposite my office. Cool.

While everyone around me was happily dozing off with their heads swining dangerously from left to right and vice versa, i was trying  very hard to stay awake in case i dozed off and missed my stops. Darn... all bcos my stops are in between and not end to end!!!

Haha... anyway, no arguments there. I still think its pretty exciting for me to be back on public transport!!! Hahahaha. I am sure i can handle it well enough. Before you can overcome a problem, you have to overcome yourself first. Cos the inner-self will always hold you back from achieving what you really wanted to do in the first place. Yeah...

Well, being in the mood for philosophy, I have been wondering. At what times do people realise that it has always been very difficult for anyone of us to go and fulfill our ambitions, hopes or dreams? Every stage of our life brings about a different set of problems. And for every set of problems, you have to come up with different solutions. And for every solution you come up with, you have to find many ways of fulfilling it and doing it. But at the same time, for every problem you overcome, new problems crop up only bcos the ones you presently see are just the tip of the iceberg. Therefore, people often conclude life is a learning experience. You cannot just stop learning at any point of time and claim,"THERE! I have learnt enough to overcome all difficulties!". No way, cos it's never true.

For me, at my age, i must admit i am still learning. But learning the wrong things at the wrong age though. Haha, sad to say... but not too egoistic to admit. Only now at this stage pf my life am i doing proper planning for my own future and taking charge of my own financial status. Why else would i be giving up on my 3416 if it weren't for the problems that i created myself back in the past??? I may have suffered initially by the 'loss' of 3416, but at the end of the day, if it reaps dividends, and i am able to see monies coming in, guess i cant really complain, can i? Eventually, what i wanna see myself achieve is to be able to store some savings in the hope i can find a suitable mariage partner and settle down with her. 

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1. To be able to buy her the ring that she may want.

2. To be able to cough up money for the wedding dinner that she wants.

3. To be able to buy a dream house with her and live with her.  

4. To be able to have money for child raising and developing and education.

5. To be able to have enough money in retirement funds so can still be able to live comfortably in the future.

6. To be able to hold on to a stable job and work hard to bring in the income to sustain the family and lifestyle. Thus the need for further studies, in my case. (Sigh, anyone wanna employ a future marketing graduate??!! Hahaha. Its never too early to ask!!!)

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Personally, i am an old school sentimental freak. Some might term me as foolish, while others term me as sentimental, yet there are those detractors who don't really quite understand why i have such a sentimentalist mentality. Lets just say i am a guy who has been brought up in the environment whereby treating a gal/gf/wife with the utmost care and concern is a basic factor, or rather, a necessity. Therefore, i find it almost second nature to me when it comes to dealing with gfs and always trying to be sensitive to their needs, their feelings, their mood, their appetite, their friends... But never ever did i imagine that i left out one factor that brought upon the downfall of one of my relationships.

PLANNING

Planning, you may ask, in what sense???? Truth be told, in almost every sense of my life right up to my future within the next 5 years and beyond. All along, during my relationships, i always focused on trying to be the nice bf who's sweet, care and concerned all the time. But perhaps... it was those youthful years when I didnt actually realise that for any relationship to progress further beyond, I would have to start thinking of HOW to provide for my future family, WHAT can i do to make everything fall in place, WHEN should i start planning and placing emphasis on jobs, studies, marriage and money.

At the same time, I saddled myself with debts. Yes, debts that can only be incurred thru credit cards bills. Guess when you kinda settled into a stable job, you tend to think that you will always be able to pay off everything that you signed for. Unfortunately for me, i didnt monitor my own financial situation which in turn caused me to be... someone who was working not to save money, but to pay off whatever i owed the banks. And not forgetting payments for my 3416.

Ultimately, my bad financial status, crumpled with my weak ambition or vision for the future, led to the end of one of my relationships. I suppose, no one can blame the gal for feeling insecure in her context, nor blame her for leaving the guy. At the end of the day, the gal is looking for someone who can be her potential mariage partner, not some fool who has been wandering around aimlessly in his life for the past 4 to 5 years. And with a financial plight like mine, coupled with the sense of insecurity i gave her when she prompted me for my future plans, i had no answer. Thats also the time when i truly realised that in order for marriage to happen, I would have to settle my demons and ghosts from the past and start rebuilding over again from then on. Since then, I have already paid off the banks and given up on 3416. In other words, the coming months should be a good time for me to have at least some substantial savings and be a source of backup when i should decide to leave my current occupation next year.

Ha, in some weird psychotic kinda way, i just realised i poured my sorrows and difficulties that faced me to the scrutinising eyes of the people who would eventually stumble upon my entry. OOpps, thats embarrassing!!! Hahaha. Quick, find me a place to hide!!! Hehehe. Humour aside, i am exposing my own problems bcos I decided I wasn't exactly ashamed of my own problems. AFter all, they were brought upon by none other than myself. Which is why i felt it could be a good idea sharing my problems with all those out there who are my friends... and anybody. No ego is too big, no mind is too narrow, no heart is too cruel and no one is ever too strong to face all problems by himself/herself.

Moral of the story: share your innertmost problems with those who care about you, and love you. No problem is too difficult to overcome, when those around you chip in to contribute and offer their helping hands. Someone just told me recently that i tend to hide all my true feelings/emotions inside and asked me how come i never revealed them to those who love and care abt me. I didnt have an answer yet again. He asked,"Is it bcos ur ego is too big for you to admit?" Well, whoever that was, hey, look, i gave up on ego and told my story to those who are reading this entry now. Yeah. Another lesson leant. Another step ahead for me into this world that still awaits me. Another brick that i have laid for my future and this is only the foundation.

THANKS, to everyone, who have kindly stepped in to help/assist/contribute to my cause. Some of you offered without asking why, some of you just stepped up and extended their help... in more ways than one, I am thankful for the existence of you people. Without your help, I wouldnt have been able to crawl out from that dark pithole into broad daylight where life and challenges still await me in time to come. And because of all of you, I have become stronger, mentally-prepared, and ready to overcome all obstacles.
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SPECIAL THANKS TO:

Mr Lee & Mr Ooi : For being there to remind me that good old friends are hard to find and come by.

Mr Lee : For stepping in without further questions to pull me out from my pithole faster than I could have imagined. For that, I will repay you in kind. And I didn't forget Mrs Lee as well. Haha.THANKS again.

Mr Chua (not myself) : For taking up the offer that i sent out. Cant thank you enough as well.

Mr Seow : For losing your temper and almost biting my head off. Even so, you made me realise quite a few things.  _|_

Last but not least,

Mr Si Di Fen : For offering your kind views and thoughts from your own perspective.

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Love is when you can't hate,
No matter how much wrong is done to you.
If you can love beyond all hurt and pain,
Then it is love.
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I suppose some pple might wonder how come this bloke (ME) suddenly had so much time on his hands to be writing continuously the past few days. Haha, cos I am on leave!! YES!! LEAVE!! For goodness sake, finally able to have some time of my own... despite the incessant phone calls from office asking me to return this morning!!! PHEW!!! NO WAY, JOSE!!!

Anyway, I hopped onto the mrt this afternoon, to Bugis to meet my fren for lunch. Her treat, so why not??!! Hahaha. So i went to the control station to top up my ez-link card... and proceeded to the turnstiles to enter. Up the escalators i went... and into the train i went... and get seated. In case they are those who are also wondering why the hell i am explaining the steps to get into an mrt... its bcos i am ashamed to say i have NOT been on public transport for the past 7 years. 7 freaking years, my goodness. While inside the train, i took the opportunity to, NO, not look at the numerous pretty ladies seated within, but to check out the new routes they have added. I must say... i was very impressed. And so, now i know that if i alight at outram mrt, i can board the train that will bring me to punggol, sengkang... and hougang. GOOD!

After lunch, my kind lady fren walked back to her office while i took the train back in the opp direction, back to my home. Overall, it was a pleasurable experience!! I got to Bugis within half an hr, thats pretty fast!! And just so i know how long it will take for me to reach Yishun mrt, i called up my fellow westerner and asked him for details. Good, i believe i am now rather well-equipped to travel to and fro betw Boon Lay and Yishun on a daily basis. I am just thankful i dun have to take feeder bus or anything. It's only a short walk from Yishun mrt to my office. Probably ard 5 to 10mins walk.

Well, all that is left is for me to travel from Yishun to Orchard area, or from Boon Lay to Orchard area. Haha, and not forgetting having a taste of what it's gonna be like travelling on trains during weekends!!! Wow, so many things to be tried out once again at different stage of my life!!! Hahaha... Feel like a small kid again. But, nevertheless, quite exciting to be back on public transport. Hahaha, wondering what happens if i get used to public transport and then not willing to take back my 3416. HAHAHA!!!

So many things to look forward to at this stage of my life... that i kinda wonder if i am getting a second chance in my own life. Although i may have ended up being back to my lonely ways once more... but in more ways than one, i learnt a lot. Who says i am not a quick learner, raise ur hands!! Good... i am glad everyone agrees i am a quick learner. Yaya, who doesn't make mistakes?? But its the process of learning from them and not repeating them again that makes the lessons in life often valuable and priceless.

Close frens often tell me that its very difficult to see when i am serious abt certain things and when i am only kidding. Even my colleagues say so. And those whom i work with. Haha, and whenever they ask me, i don't really have an answer for them. Perhaps the real time when i display my true emotions is when i am alone and have time to ponder over the things i did or did not do, and reflect on my actions as well as mistakes. Sigh. Unfortunately, some mistakes made are unforgivable in the context of others. And the truth is, it's human nature to regret only after certain events have happened. Well, to that i say, LEARN. Not bcos u were forced to, not bcos u want to do it for someone, but bcos u are willing to accept what has happened, as well as admit ur mistakes and ensure they wont be made again.

At least, thats my case. Hahaha. Not very often some events that happened in my life can prompt me to write such an interesting entry about me myself and I. Ultimately, I am just glad I possess great determination and inner self-belief that people don't really get to see. But even so, I don't forget I am a guy with humour and extraordinary sense of comedy timing! Hahahaha... Woo, thats a lot fo self-praise coming from a humble quiet guy like me.

Alright, fingers getting tired from typing. God's speed to all who want to prove their desire in excelling at something. Have faith, will travel. Love may not be able to bring food to the table, but at least, determination and hard work does. However, love does allow each and every one of us to truly open our eyes and see what it can positively do, and also show us who are those that really care about us, show concern to us... and who we want to wake up to every day from henceforth. 

I love this world. Cheers.    

To: All Girls/Ladies/Females/Brokebacks,

Find a guy...

Who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

Who calls you back when you hang up on him.

Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her." 

A whole new month,

A whole new beginning,

A brand new start,

A brand new life!

Ahoy, lets move on!!!

SEVEN MORE DAYS... and counting!!!

tick tock tick tock... ... ... ...

Goodbye and farewell to 3416 !!!

This will be one justified cause!!!

Yeah!!!

tick tock tick tock...

time is ticking as i count down...

to the days where public transport will no longer be a thing of the past...

2 more weeks to go exactly... time sure flies...

just 2 more weeks... before everything will resume normally till 6 months later.

thanks bro. appreciate it. i am glad we are family and its nice to see true bonding surface when such unfortunate events happen. i cant thank you enuf. and to all the bros out there, u know who u are... thanks for everything. love u guys. i am glad i have u guys around me always encouraging me! thanks thanks thanks!!! hehehe...

April 4th... here i come. to a whole new world once again. SBS... SMRT... Comfort, i am coming!!! *roars* hahahahaha... yeah!!!

14 days...

Finally decided to set my ass down to compose an entry, be it relevant or not. Just had a cuppa while watching tv and relaxing. Feels good to be able to do so. Been a very hectic week at work. Or should I say WEEKS... cos colleagues constantly not around. And all the bullshit from the top falls on me. Well, guess Mr Nice Guy has to do the job, eh???

Enough about work. Rather talk about something else... Personal life has been kind enough so far. Got a lady in my life... since November. Well, haha, looks like someone finally decided to walk into my life and lead me straight. Anyway, I don't know how this relationship is currently going... But I do know it definitely went well in the beginning (as do all relationships?!). For now, things are kinda stale, so as to speak. I feel quite at a loss sometimes... not knowing what to do... nor how to maintain the relationship to keep it going. Perhaps its me... or maybe its a bit of both.

No matter what, I will just keep trying to get it going... but like some will say, it takes two hands to clap. Thats besides the point, it appears... but i guess this gal in one way or another has wriggled her way into a special place in my heart. Don't know if she knows this, but if she happens to read this entry, then she will know. Yes, things may not turn out to be the way you had imagined it to be, or the way you wanted it to be. But it doesn't mean we should give up on our feelings. Well, thats all I really wanted to say.

Haha, this has been a special news bulletin from me... thats about it for now. Till next time... Bye Bye!!!

To: gonfiem a.k.a einuj

I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart)
I am never without it (anywhere I go you go,my dear;
And whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)

I fear no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet)
I want no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
And it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
And whatever a sun will always sing is you

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows
Here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
And the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
Which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide
And this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)

Hey hey... finally, the day of awakening has arrived!!! Hehe, yeah, I am 26... I mean... Well... Alright... I AM 26!!! My cousins and gal threw a mini-celebration for me at... where else... Rouge!! Haha. Had a few drinks... Or should I say, a number of drinks? Photos are posted right here for viewing!

Couldn't think of anything more to say. Only thing I wanna say right here is to thank my brothers... and my gal... for taking the time out to spend time with me. And throwing a mini-surprise for me. Special thanks to my gal for coming up with the idea and cake!!! Ok, that sort of wraps up this early December entry. Till the next one...

More often than not, I find myself asking this question. Do I really want to know everything? Or is it better if I leave some truths unknown? Cos judging by the statement "What You Don't Know Won't Hurt You"... I suppose... this only applies to individuals who have the same mindset as me.

Its been a long time now... Since I asked a gal how many previous boyfriends she had before. I figured to myself, why find out things that I don't really wish to know? It doesn't matter how many you had in the past, what matters most is whether you know how to cherish and treasure the current one. I always tell myself "Be true to yourself and you won't regret". Haha, somehow, I find myself in situations where I try not to believe in that. Anyway, thats beside the point. I am just trying to figure out how many of us actually have thought of asking but never did. For fear of finding out the real truth that could cause you hurt and pain. Aiyo, if so troublesome then don't bother finding out lah. So simple, right???!!!

There are always personal details that your opposite party will feel compelled NOT to disclose. Hey, come on, give them their personal space and not force them to divulge. Else both of you will feel uncomfortable. I am sure you also won't want your partner to force you to disclose EVERYTHING about your past, ya? I am writing this cos I was doing some self-reflecting not so long ago. In fact, I got my mind thinking after 'LOST' was shown. Had nothing to do so wasted some time by going thru some sites and presto, I unintentionally found out something. Haha. No, don't get me wrong. I am not unhappy at finding out. Its just weird. If i hadn't gone to see some sites, I wouldn't have found out, right??!! Thus, I can conclude that problems are only brought upon yourself by none other than... you guessed it, YOURSELF. Hehehe.

Enough said about unhappy thoughts or whatsoever. While she's out there buying bread from 7-11, I better hurry up and finish writing this entry.  Well, I still kinda find it hard to believe I bought her an iPod. Hehe, I only found out about it cos she told me her mp3 player was damaged... so I took it upon myself to find a replacement for her. And coincidentally, Heng was selling his!! So... I kinda got a good deal out of it... and Ta Da, she now possesses an iPod Nano!! THANKS, Heng!!!  Haha, at first I thought of giving it to her without uploading any songs. Then I figured whats the point of giving an iPod to someone if there aren't any songs in it??!! Haha, so I proceeded to upload my songs into it before passing it to her. Thats the best I can do for someone who loves listening to music, and not forgetting SINGING!! She's bubbly... entertaining... sociable... funny... irritating ALL the time... witty... and willing to learn. Maybe there's nothing much I can ask for... Maybe...

To this person whom I am writing about, thank you. For being at the right place at the right time. Well, you almost lost an opportunity once. Grab hold of this one and don't let go!! Hahahaha... You are doing fine... so keep up the good work??!!

"Words can't say what love can do, but I'll be there for you"  

Wake me up... When September ends... Oh, hey, wait a minute, this is already november  and I am still singing that song. Hahaha. Anyway, finally felt like writing again. Wonder if its because I have lots of thoughts, or I really have too much time on my hands?

Can't possibly be the latter when I am always returning home late. With all the recent happenings in office, I have been compelled to write a complaint and... COMPLAIN!!! Sigh. When will all these nonsensical acts and silly requests ever end??? Shish, its not like I don't have a job on my hands, but to add misery to my already busy schedule... Thats like slave-driving. It doesn't matter if u don't have, but we certainly do. Enuf said about work. just the thought of it pisses me off. Gotta remain positive and stay focused! It doesn't just take one man to bring me down. It takes more than that!!! AAAHHH!!!

OK, back to something personal that spells positivity. For those who know me well enough, or for those who have seen me these days, yes, thank you for asking and YES, its true. I will bear all those well-wishes in mind and try my best. Boon a.k.a Spidy, I know u are coming back soon. So pls hurry up and do so. ONE MORE WEEK to your RETURN!!! The Jedi Council misses your presence. As for your request to meet up together, YES, that can be arranged. Looking forward to your return from the northern province. Wanted to keep it under wraps until you got back, but I guess someone spilled the beans before you even stepped on home soil. Hehehe. The promise... Lets just put it that way. The promise we made took place while we were young and vulnerable and lonely. We were two single-minded individuals who were looking for true  and it didn't happen for us back then. Well, I suppose now times have changed. And I am sure so has our fortunes. And if u are telling me that u met someone over there... Hey, why not give it a serious thought, eh? We rock, bruDDer OOi.

Hey people, guess what? Its now just TWO weeks away from my BIRTHDAY!!! BIRTHDAY!!! BIRTHDAY!!! Fcuk... I am gonna be 26 yrs old this year...  BUT HEY!!! WHO CARES??!!! Hahahaha, I am enjoying every single minute of it!!! It just means I am handling all maters pertaining to my personal life the way I want it to be handled!!! (Err, haven't I been doing that for the past 5 years??) Anyway, finally... just FOUR years away from the big THREE ZERO. Gosh, that really does frighten me...

The only way to live my life is to live it to the fullest!!! And fulfill my few ambitions and pursue my limited dreams!!! OK, I have run out of things to write already. Time to end this entry. Take care people.

"Love only takes a moment, but it lasts forever"

First day of November!! I have awakened!! Finally... looking forward to a month of fulfilling activities and fun amongst work and social life!!

Went to ZOUK last night... or more correctly, VELVET. It was enjoyable and pretty much fun. The crowd was great... and many were dressed in their Halloween gothic attire!! The decor, after their recent uplifting and renovation, kinda made the place comfortable and cosy. Definitely a place worth hanging out at. But at the kinda entry price, maybe ONCE a month would be a fair statement! Haha.

Anyway, looking forward to a nice long weekend break starting from thursday for me! Tomorrow will be my last work day for this week!! Hurray!!! Yeah... happy holidays, people.

As you can see from the title, October came, October is leaving... I dun even know what really happened in October cos it seemed to pass by so fast. My mind kinda been getting writer's block every now and then, which was why its decidedly better not to write anything until I had time to focus.

Thus, now, with a fever setting in, and flu already running, i am seated right in front of the comp, with a heavy head and tired body... writing this journal. As been the past 3 fridays in October, been hanging out with my cousins to gather, have a meal and talk or club. Never a dull moment spent with them, as my friend, or their friends, or groupies as recently mentioned, can attest. Haha. Yes, groupies... gosh, what a serious word to use but it appears their numbers are increasing. Actually, our friends always wonder how come this bunch of cousins are so well-knit and close. Like i mentioned previously, its bcos we spent much of our younger years together, often at each other's house almost every other weekend.

We played together... from masak masak to pool and stuff in our older years. Haha, time really flies, dude. Went to ICB last friday. Packed as usual. But managed to find a table and 3 seats, all thanks to denis who had the patience to stick it out! Well done!! Haha... and we were lucky cos we managed to meet 2 new friends who were seated beside us!! Oh well, thats how things go. Attended BEYOND's concert as well the prev Saturday. Wow... lots of cyalume sticks waving in the air... me and cousins included. We sang along to the tunes that we grew up with... the familiar ones we always sang in karaokes. Hahaha.

Talking about familiar, someone is worth mentioning in this space today. Lionel. Who is he? He's Denis's sech sch friend till now. One of the groupies as well. Hahaha. Anyway, its kind of a good thing knowing Lionel. Cos this young man quite pleasant, wait, make that very pleasant and easy-going. Not forgetting handsome. Hahaha. He's definitely prominent in my Rouge photo album. Luckily for him, he's attached!! With the kind of lady that can match his looks! Envious!!!

ALrighty, end of entry. Tired and feeling hot now. Need a cold shower to bring down my temperature. Wake me up when October ends...

Hey hey! Today, I am back with a VENGENCE!! With photos!! With things to say!! Haha... So stay tuned... ...

A distant cousin dropped by our shores last friday and me and denis as well as elvis were tasked to bring her to the night scene. We therefore settled ourselves down at ROUGE cos of the band + music, which totally rocks. So we danced, and we grooved, we shook, we jumped, we yelled, we whistled... we hugged (??!!), we took pictures. So to sum it all up, it was pretty happening (whats new?). Gonna be posting up the pics together with this entry so keep your eyes on it. However, if it's not enough, then drop by to view the compiled ROUGE PARTY album. Hehehe...

Don't really wanna talk too much. Just that it was fun hanging out with the people involved in the outing. See ya. May the force be with you. Sheng Siong rocks!!! 

Nope, you did not see wrongly. Yes, I have not written a single entry for the past one month. Not that I have been busy until THAT extent. Simply put, I have been putting off writing one simple article that reflects my life.

Anyway, now that I finally summed up the last remaining amount of energy I have left before falling into the labyrinth of sleeping, I better write something thats legible. What have I done for the past one month? The same old monotonous routine of work, home, work, home, anime, anime, anime, pool, pool, soccer... Yupz. Thats it. What I have been doing for the past one month. Nothing spectacular... Nothing worth mentioning... Apart from the fact that Kailun from my previous workplace fracture his right ankle while playing soccer. Haha, kinda reminded me of what happened to me last year around this time. Had my leg in a cast for 2 whole weeks, unable to move freely, cannot scratch when it itches inside... and having to rely on crutches.

But compared to kailun, my pain is nothing since he had to have metal screws inserted into his ankle. Well well, lets see whose leg will hurt the next time he plays soccer again. Haha, he can literally KICK the hell out of someone on the field!! Oh, I also promptly warned him he will be setting off metal detector alarms at airports around the world!! How cool is that, having to explain countless times that the metal is INSIDE your body, after having already removed ALL metallic objects thats OUTSIDE the body???!!! Hehehe... With all due concern, hope he makes a full recovery. And err, Kailun, hurry go back to work leh. I 'need' your help... haha, only you will know what I am talking about.

Peace out, people.

After 4 days (190805 to 220805) of fun, sun, laughter, shopping, drinking and enjoyment, I am back!!! Rejuvenated!! Refreshed!! Alive!! Hohoho!!! I am so happy... to have been able to go on this trip and destress and most importantly, have a smashing good time with my friends (ahem)!!!

Anyway, to make a long story short, we practically went clubbing every night in Bangkok and ordered house bottles! Haha, cos it was dirt cheap. Something like S$60+ only. And the Macdonald's we had there, man, even MORE dirt cheap. Costing only S$2.80+ a meal for one EXTRA VALUE MEAL!!! Hey, lets not eat Mac in S'pore cos its so EX!! Haha... Gosh, the prices are really beyond comparison. The cost of living really varies a lot in different parts of South-East Asia, eh? During the day, after we woke up from our slumber, we would hurry out and go shopping. Gosh, truth be told, I have NEVER EVER shopped and BOUGHT so much in my entire life. This time round, I ended up with 8 pieces of clothing for myself, a bag for my mum, a shirt for my dad, a bag for my aunt, 2 more smaller bags for my 2 young cousins, 2 watches for my 'cousins' from HongKong who are staying here, 2 CK shirts for my 2 eldest gal cousins... 2 tshirts for my good buddies... Phew, am I done with the list??!!

Hahaha, I gotta say this, the one tshirt I bought for Mr Boon... OH MY GOSH!! Hahaha, he sent me laughing all the way when he put it on, cos his tummy was bulging out from the fitting tshirt!! Maybe the size I got for him was right... but its just that his figure does not compliment the tshirt I bought. Hahaha. Hey, Boon, SLIM DOWN & STOP DRINKING!!! By the way, Heng, ur tshirt with him. Abercrombie & Fitch! U better remember to get it from Boon soon, otherwise he will take and wear. Wanted to pass to u personally that night, but couldn't move myself after a tiring day in the office. Sorry dude.

Was reading my cousin's blog just now (YES, I have MANY cousins & I don't know how to categorize them for all of u readers). Anyway, she has sure grown up a lot. And mature. Writing all the funny stuff and the going-ons in her life. Haha... very worthwhile reading her blog! Keep it up (will not name her for confidentiality reasons). She's now studying in NYP (I think, or was it TP, ooppsss)... I think its TP. Err... course is... err... Tourism?? Or was it F & B??!! Gosh... I better hide!! Sorry ah, mei mei. I forgot what u studied le. Haha, when online chat again??!! Hahaha...

Your brother, please go teach him how to be more IT savvy leh. So OUT-dated, Not IN one. Hahahaha. Anyway, I am pretty sure u will do fine in ur course of studies cos u have always proved time and time again u can excel. Well, I think thats about all i wanna write about. Just wanted to feel elated about going overseas for my holiday. Bangkok was fun. I should be going back there again. I have never spent so much money on a shopping spree as well. Now that I am back, wow, I realised I am VERY VERY broke now. Where's the $$$??? SHOW ME THE $$$!!! Oh, did I mention I bought a Samsonite travel luggage there??? Just so I can stash my items into it and lug it back to Singapore!! Hahaha... S$250 for that luggage, folks!! Wah piangz, I sure did splurge on myself!! Wooo... not forgetting that on the first day of arrival, my friends and I went to have a self-pampering session. We had manicures, pedicures, haircut, hair wash, facial & Swensen's EARTHQUAKE that costs only S$20 for TWO bowls!!!! Check that out!!! Will include photos soon. So keep your eyes glued on this space thats coming right up real soon!!! Hehe.

Till then... time to rest, recover, relax and get ready to face the huge amount of workload thats waiting for me when I return on Monday. See ya all.